When a mother's mental health crisis ends in tragedy, children are always among those who suffer most - whether they are lost in the crisis itself, or whether they survive it and spend the rest of their lives learning to live with an absence they were too young to understand. Both of those children deserve to be named. Both of those families deserve to be seen.

I began doing things that were completely outside of my norm, like spontaneously quitting my job one morning. I have zero memory of that. There was even a time when I chose to check in on my pastor, which I never did. I was also speaking about grandiose ideas to my best friend. Alarms were going off everywhere! My husband said at one point I started quoting scripture that he never realized I had memorized.

My Postpartum Psychosis (PPP) story is hard to tell because the memories are fuzzy, distant and may or may not have happened as I remember. It’s like trying to put a puzzle together when you don’t have the picture on the box or all the pieces and the pieces you do have don’t all fit together.