If you are a mom, this message is for you!
Straight away I want you to know that you are known by God, loved by God & accepted by God (just as you are) wherever you are on your motherhood journey. You need to know and more importantly believe that He loves you so much that He dances over you! Yes, mom, you read that correctly. God dances over you with delight! Zephaniah 3:17
I sat at the kitchen table completely depleted. Frozen I stared at the wall 4 feet from where I sat. I can still feel that single tear roll down the right side of my face. My kids ran throughout the house laughing and playing with reckless abandon as their mom sat on a kitchen chair totally deflated. I can vividly remember the sound of their voices echoing throughout the kitchen. How did I arrive at this place? Had I signed on for more than I could handle? As these questions swirled around in my head on repeat, I knew that I had reached a fork in the road. I could fall deeper into despair or I could cry out to God. I chose the later. I was physically, mentally & emotionally exhausted but I hadn’t forgotten that He was a covenant keeping Savior. I didn’t have the strength to lift my voice but I knew that the one who is all knowing was able to interpret exactly what was on my heart. I sat still on the high back wooden chair as another tear found its way down my face. I didn’t have the energy to wipe away the tears that would follow. I slowly raised my head, just enough to survey the disaster that was my living room. As more tears pooled in my eyes it was that moment that I mustered up these words…
“I can’t do this.” Without missing a beat my heavenly father held my words for but a moment before responding in a soft whisper, “I never asked you to; I only asked you to trust me.” They are mine, Nichole, they belong to me. He went on to remind me that as a mother I would never lack anything because I named Him Lord of my life. That was 8 years ago. I have never forgotten how He rescued me from myself that day in my kitchen. I felt so lonely, but He said I will never leave you. I recall feeling despair, but His word says that those who place their hope in Him will never be disappointed. As I waited there that morning for the next tear to fall instead I experienced the power of His presence. That morning God had invited me up to a deeper faith & greater dependency. Everyday I have to choose to lean into His strength and His wisdom instead of my own.
You too are being invited up! How will you respond to His invitation? Today my kids are 14, 13, 12, 11, 9 and 8. God has been faithful to His word. That day 8 years ago I had six kids under the age of 7. God bless you mom!